January152012
my brother is an absolute fuckhead. he has no self-respect. he tells me to shut up and calls me a fucking bitch.
nothing can make me happy but to see him get by a freakin car then dragged off to the edge of a cliff then get pushed off into a sea of sharks then get struck by a fucking lightning. cannot take this shit anymore, that disrespectful bastard. go fucking die in a hole.
8PM
so lately, i have been thinking about 2012. i want to make it a good year and for that, i have to start now. i want to lose weight, i want to look better and feel better about myself. i want to be more optimistic and be the same for others. i want a year to remember. prefect, friends, formal, schoolies, and duh family and duh sexy seven :)
i have been thinking about schoolies a lot since dad (after saying no for like the past year) decided that him, plus us 3 kids, should go back to the philippines for christmas this year. and the bad part is, i’ve already planned to go to vietnam. and i’ve been so so so so so keen for it, it’s not even funny.
but anyway, whichever country i end up going, i want to make a difference. if i end up on vietnambabyy, i want to see all the beautiful things it has to offer. i want to walk around the street and get a taste of the different cultures and the different food. i want it to change the way i view things and the way i view life. i want it to transform me.
but if i end up in the philippines, i want to be of service to my family. since i have 2 part time jobs at such a young age, i actually am able to provide a lot of help. i helped to pay off my aunt’s debt just a few weeks ago, in which before i sent the money, made her temporarily leave her home, leaving all my cousins by themselves, because the police got involved. i sent a crapload of money to my family in iligan that were victimized by bagyong sendong. legit, EVERYTHING inside was destroyed. even the ceiling. also, i sent more money back there for two of my other cousins who was sent to hospital, one because of pneumonia, and the other was bitten by some animal, can’t remember what it was. if i go back there, i want to help my relatives in every way i can. i shall use up a lot of my savings and treat them on food and buy them things because i actually will be able to afford it. i will help pay for some of their expenses and holy dlfmaxrleiirgeoafjo;ef, that would be the best feeling in the world.
ehhhhhhhh just felt like blabberinggg
